And who do you think you are? Runnin' 'round leaving scars"

I find it interesting how we as humans define our self. If you poll people a bet know one would say there defining characteristic is being human, we are so much more than that at our cores.
When I used to get stressed I would pull a Katniss and repeate in my head " I am Chrissy D I am a FACS teacher,I am funny and everyone likes me, I know I am good at my job" this would help me when I am stressed to bring me back to relality... This would help me when I felt like shut about my body and all of the things wrong with me. It's strange that I used this is a defining characteristic because I have never questioned it's validity... Until this year.
I used to use my definition of myself me feel good about my self. I am funny, I am kind, I am good at talking with anyone and people like me. I used to pride myself on my ability to make anyone like me, that if you gave me enough time with a person I could get then to appreciate being with me... I verity of things go into this ofcourse- my ability to communicate, my abilities in reading people and adapting to thier needs and wants. I used to believe that these skills were solid.
I am ways saying, everyone has there skills, spelling is not one of mine. But I guess I always figured my other skills were so strong that it made up for the things I was lacking. When I begain to question all these "facts", when I began to see and think I didn't have these skill which I prided myself on... Well I began to question who I was. who I am.... I guess this year I have started to see myself more honestly and It has just left me with questions. Is being a teacher is what defines me if I am not even go at it? I used to this that I was a nice person but I am starting to see the other side of myself and it scares me. I feel like I woke up a few weeks ago and realized everything I know about myself was a lie- and was all in my head. Goal: Figure out who I am.